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  • Michaela Patel


My dearest Friend,

I have a confession to make...

I feel really guilty for how I have treated you all this time. I feel so so bad for how I have judged and disliked you. I even hated you at times!

You have been a loyal, trusted, and supportive friend of mine. You haven't failed to carry me around every day of my life, sometimes exhausted, working hard every night while I was asleep to repair yourself.

I am really disappointed in myself for how I have repaid you. I have not listened to you when you fell ill and needed a time out. I have ignored you when you were screaming for attention, because you felt so unwell, dull or full, while I continued feeding you with junk.

I failed to listen to your cries when lacking energy, yet I have let you starve because I needed to fit into my new clothes.

I am so sorry for criticising and judging you whenever I looked at you in a mirror.

I put you down so many times for not looking like others. I resented you every time I noticed a new wrinkle on my face, or just a sign of a grey hair on my temple.

I failed miserably in embracing your perfection, wanting to foolishly fit into a picture of what society deems acceptable and appropriate for my age. I totally misunderstood what you are about and how wonderfully original you are. I looked at you with disgust at times, rejecting your natural beauty.

You were nothing but caring, and lovingly fulfilling your duties even though I supplied you with drugs, alcohol, antidepressants, painkillers and slimming products. I am so sorry for poisoning you with toxic fumes when smoking.

I rejected you, yet you were just a result of my own maltreatment...

I had a very poor understanding of your needs, yet you fulfilled all I asked of you.

Every single day you breathe for me, keeping me alive. You keep me safe from burning, sharp objects, and falling. Whenever I hurt you, you work relentlessly to heal yourself.

You enable me to take walks in the nature, or swim in the sea or run for a bus. You havent failed me in the most challenging of times like carrying my unborn child. You brought him into this world on a verge of dying...

I can NEVER repay you for this.

Without you I wouldn't be able to experience a loving embrace with my family and friends, nor a passionate kiss, or deep intimacy with my partner. Without your hard work round the clock I wouldn't be able to play with my child in the park, or keep him safe when crossing a road.

I was blind to how much you serve me. Without you I would be nothing, yet I treated you like nobody. I am so deeply sorry for the disrespectful attitude all this time. I never really appreciated the loyal friend you are. You deserve nothing but love and caring attention.

Please accept my sincere apology from the bottom of my heart for my truly shocking behaviour.

I hope you can forgive me...

I promise to treat you with nothing but loving care and utmost respect. I promise to stop judging you, to compare and criticise you. I will cherish and adore you.

I promise to appreciate every breath I take, and feel grateful for every morning I wake up alive. I promise to look after you when you are down, listen to your wants, and attend to your needs.

I promise to carefully nourish you, keeping you fit and healthy so that the two of us have a blast for the time we have left together. With love and forever Your loyal Friend...

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